Back to square one

I wish I was still eating raw food, and finding it easy, but the truth is I'm not. I have this idea of what I'd eat in 'the perfect day', and I usually start really well, then by lunchtime it's crumbling, and by evening it's all over red rover. I'm sick of wishing it was easy! It's not easy to eat a raw vegan diet, of course when I think logically it's not, but the more cooked food I eat the worse I feel, so that's a pretty strong message about how I should be eating.

The eve of my brother-in-law's wedding is not a great day on which to begin a 100% raw vegan diet anew. Their catering is long since organised and there won't be any raw food there. Not a problem, I'll do the best that I can and take it from there.

Tonight I ate pasta with a bought tomato pasta sauce and I now feel awful, so sick. But my baby just grinned at me in delight, so life is still more amazing than I can express! What a great way to regain some perspective :-)

Doing 'mostly raw' is really hard. It involves a lot more thinking than 100% raw because it involves always thinking about how much cooked food I've eaten in a given day, and what kind of food, and you'd be amazed at the excuses I can find to label a particular day as a 'special occasion' deserving of celebration via chocolate cake. I don't even like chocolate cake! The more I reflect on this, the more Jinjee's talk of food addiction makes sense. So I'm drawing the line and as from now I eat only raw food.

And the wedding? I'll do my very best. I'll drink only water, which is my favourite drink anyway, and I'm sure there will be a raw salad or two at the buffet, so I'll focus on those. I'll make sure I hve a  big salad for lunch beforehand, and maybe take some nuts to discreetly snack on.

Friday will be my birthday, and for that I hope I can get hold of some of the raw spiced fig balls that a company called Super Food Revolution sells at the loal farmer's market. My birthday is before the next market, but I'm going to emal SFR and see if I can get hold of some fig balls instead of a cake. If I can't then I'll make a raw cake.

I'm also interested in experimenting with different varieties and blends of herbal tea (made as sun tea) to see what effect they have on me, and whether their effect is different between raw and cooked. I've had various sun teas before, but not really focused fully on their effects (and to be honest I've loaded them with honey in the past, which I have now stopped eating).

Wish me luck! :-)